Xpliara--Cartoonist

Talking to strangers online
Is the best decision i have ever made
Reality is lemons

*peers out of a corner and starts to play steven universe music on full blast* GARNET, AMETHYST, and PEARLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL..............................................and steven.

It's been forever since i've saw him. I miss his smile, his blue kind eyes, and his presence. His arms around me, protecting me. The best person I've ever known. He makes me nervous about what to say or what i do. Because I don't want to mess anything up. I'm so imperfect and he's beyond perfection. I want to go on cheesy dates with him, like a movie or an amusement park. I've been praying to find someone like him. Someone who enjoys my insanity. I've had fantasies about such an innocent man. I want him to touch me the way I would touch him. As soon as I'm his age, I'd hope our bodies would collide. (oh god im laughing so hard right now. yet im so turned on) Though I know he would push me away for i have an ugly body and he wants to take things slow. But sometimes i show affection in such a way that I'd be willing to put him to the test. (pfft) i may feel sexual about this adorable man, but it's about what he wants. He doesn't want me to do such things. Though I know he's only trying to protect me from being preggers at age 16. (am i taking this too far?) 

So i was on Netflix and was looking for a movie to watch when i scrolled to this movie that I've heard about from numerous people. Plus my boyfriend's DA name has Balto in it so i figured he liked it. Also he is into wolves so i thought this was the movie for him. As i was looking at the title, i thought "maybe i shouldn't watch it without wolfy... I should wait until he comes back so we can watch it together." But he wouldn't be back for a long time and there's really nothing else on Netflix these days, so I played the movie. Right when the first scene showed i was like "holy shit! i've seen this before." Apparently my mom and I saw this when I was a little girl. So i watched the movie and i thought it was good. Still wished wolfy was there with me to watch it. I thought it could be our movie, you know? Now i've fallen into the Balto trash bin... RIP me.